when i was young i was dumb as a rock i could not read a clock

My last Sunday of hanging with my family before I have to go back. My head is swimming with thoughts of what the future might hold. After just three mortgage payments I already want to move. My want for a real house burnsa hole in my mind tonight after a few dogfish head beers. The condo is great but the proximity of my windows to the back porches of the condoes next door that house the young white college kids next door gaurantee anger from me as they drink too much and smoke way too many cigarettes right outside my windows and my little baby's window. Who knew my previous bad habits would come to haunt me like this. The floors here creak too much. There's no back yard for my daughter to run around in. Dang why did I insist we buy a stupid condo in gge city. In this dirty little corner of Chicago. Ugh. I hope my five year plan pays off and I can sell this creaky stinky condo and buy something real to raise my family in. These beers have my eyes heavy and I fear Minnie Pearl will wake up soon making sleep an impossibility tonight. Bee good out there kids. I'll never be happy and will always keep reaching and wanting more. I am the mouse in "if you give a mouse a cookie"

won't you help mia sing these songs of freedom

The passed four weeks have flown by and on Monday I have to return to my bus route. It is going to be very hard to leave Minnie Pearl and Flaca at home but my paternity leave is at an end.Minnie Pearl is amazing. She has her mom's beauty and temperament and my gases as far as I can tell.I can spend hours looking at her wondering what is goingvon behind those little eyes that look at at 2 am in the morning. 2am is also a very scary time of night because when she is screaming her beautiful little head off I truly start to question my sanity. The doubt and worries sneak in. It is crazy that a 9 pound girl could have me wrapped around her finger. I can't be positive but I think she likes Bob Marley music. Sometimes when she is going crazy a play some of the songs off my I touch and I have myself fooled that it soothes her. She has gone from melt down to silence after playing a few samples off exodus. This leads me to believe that her hearing is developing. I hope everything is developing the way it is suppose to. This little girl is my world. I never could have guessed that being a dad would be this awesome. Minnie Pearl has a great way of making me feel like a million dollars. When others are holding her and she goes into melt down I reach in and grab her I hold her close to me and whisper in or next to her ear that everything will be alright and she calms down and falls asleep. At which point the people present usually say ah daddy's girl. Heavenly. Flaca is doing great although probably a little tired. We celebrated our second year anniversary last week. Life is great. This post probably doesn't make much sense but in my brief time I wanted to stop by and ramble. Be good out there kids.tell your parental figures you love them.they spent a lot of sleep deprived nights wishing to give the world to you

every little thing she does is magic

Her milk breath. The way her eyes flutter before they open. The way they roll around in an attempt to tricking me she can focus her undeveloped peepers on a some fictional image I cant see. Minnie Pearl was born on Aug 30 and my life automatically improved a million percent. The passed week and a half has been filled with nonstop awe and total amazement in the wonders that I already see in my daughter. Like any proud papa I think she is the most beautiful girl ever. She already has me wrapped around her little finger. The fate of my life hangs on each tiny breath she takes while awake or asleep or in some weird combination of both. Perfection kids. I'm smiling so big you can see the teeth in the back of my mouth. This little girl is amazing. She is already sleep depriving Flaca and I but I have to confess I think she may be the coolest little girl in the world. I'm going to cut this short. I hope everyone out there can find some version of this insanely awesome happiness that I am currently experiencing. Be good out tcwhere kids. Get some rest. Call your parent or parental figure and tell them you love them.